"Choose" this? I think not...

I often hear people say ridiculous things like, "People choose to be gay" and similar idiotic things. I'm not sure why anyone would choose to be gay...I don't think homosexuals are treated fairly or equally at all...Why would I choose that? Why would anyone choose that? The whole thing is just laughable to me (Well, not exactly like, "OMG! That's the funniest thing I've ever heard!" It's more like a, *light chuckle* "What a stupid idea..."). I tried to be "straight". Living a lie and telling yourself lies daily to get you through each day is a lot harder than it seems. You'll end up miserable and pissed off at the world. Trust me...I know all about it. But I also know this, no one would willingly choose to be different and have to live through the bullshit of being gay.



Why am I bringing this up, you ask? Well, allow me to explain. Have you ever tried to prove "Domestic Partnership"? If not, allow me to tell you how not simple this is. To prove this, we have to have a notarized statement saying that we have not been domestic partners with anyone else in the last year or something. We also have to prove that we live together. (That's easy; we have our apartment lease.) They also want other ways that we are "tied" together financially. Well, this is more difficult. We don't own a house, car, or anything else in both of our names. The bills are solely in her name (That way we didn't have to put a deposit on anything.). We have our own separate checking accounts, which a lot of people have, so I don't see how this is an option. I don't know who she had named as her beneficiary on her life insurance through work, but it wasn't me...It will be now, but it might be too late because they want certain things in the works for a long time to show a "history".



You may be asking, "What is this all about?" It's because she thinks I need medical insurance. I've lasted the last God only knows how many years without health insurance, so I don't see what the big deal is, but she worries...Plus, she wanted me to try to get on AHCCCS (pronounced, "Access"), which is Arizona's version of Medi-cal for you Californians, but I said I don't want this because I don't want to be white trash. I know, I know, not everyone on it is white trash...Whatever. I do things my way and that's that. I'd rather just go without than ask for help...So, she's now dead set on getting me insurance even though I have argued that it's not necessary and that I don't want her family thinking I'm mooching off her (which I'm really starting to think they think...I've applied all over for work and I never hear anything back. It just sucks balls.). Today we got the paperwork for it and she talked to an HR lady about it. The lady said, "Oh, you should've put her as your beneficiary before. They want to see a history." Well, fuck them, I say. If we were a straight couple, we could've gotten married on our first date and she could've put me on her medical insurance the next week and people would've been all, "Oh, newlyweds? How sweet! Congratulations!" But we're not straight and we don't have the option of marriage unless we move to specific states. Instead, we're left trying to prove to them that we're together and we plan on staying that way...you know...at least for the next year. What the fuck!? How many married couples have to sign and notarize documents stating that they plan to be together for a specific amout of time??? How is this fair to anyone?



I know, people always work the system and this is their idea for keeping it fair, but it's bullshit. I'm just not sure why it is that the law-abiding citizens have to pay for the bullshit crimes of others. I'm not trying to trick anyone or get something I'm not eligible for, but it's a bitch and a half to prove it. This is one of those things that would just be so much easier if we were straight and married. And it sucks. So, to those of you who believe, "Oh, it's totally a choice," I challenge you to convince me of why anyone in their right fucking mind would choose to be gay...why anyone would choose to do everything the hard way all the time...And for those of you who ever try to prove domestic partnership, well, I wish you luck


The funny thing is this--those people who want to work the system and get stuff they're not entitled to will, no matter how many safeguards are put into place.